In Sickness and Health

If your motivation is to avoid badness (suffering, failure, whatever) then the best you can ever become is mediocre. It is a sickness in this country. So many institutions are infected with mediocrity. It's not acceptable. Find something worth dying for. Some great thing that's worth your time. Better yet, worth your blood, sweat and tears. Find something worth fighting for. THAT is life. So I'm caretaking for an elderly man. Everyone around him stresses survival. I stress life. This pisses a lot of people off. Instead of merely BEING ALIVE, I want him, others and myself, to LIVE. It's analogous to money, actually. Money is only as good as what you spend it on just as living (having life merely) is only as good as how you spend your life. If you spend your money trying to close your heart from the world, barricade yourself in your giant fucking house and fracture yourself into sickening little pieces, hoo fucking rah. You've just failed. Congratulations, you're rich and totally fucking stupid. Hurray, you're alive- but only half-living. You're the walking dead. No, mediocrity isn't for me. I don't want to watch this sick show any longer. I seek greatness- and greatness will meet me.