I feel only disgust when people say I'm brilliant.
How can they possibly give me such a title when they know not of what I say? How can you prescribe such a thing to an illness you know nothing about? It is the violence of my will against theirs and I've found myself to be the greater beast. I'm not brilliant. I'm savage in all the ways unfit for leadership. I can no more lead a nation as I could lead myself.
The state of things is this- dishes pile in the sink and I'm drunk on the couch. No more fit to lead a bunch of misfits. Think nothing more of it.
I don't usually read random blogs...
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I know exactly how you feel, but I've never been able to put it into words. Thank you for vocalizing and clarifying that sinking feeling I've had to endure every time someone praises my "genius." Your post was cathartic.
Thank you very much. Do keep in touch?
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