burn out

with publicity in music or the arts, in general, when you get to a certain size fanbase, they'll support you. I mean, it seems inherently true because they are buying your art, but don't get it confused, it isn't the colors they are buying, it's a link to this deeper truth that they can tap into whenever they want. it's a meditation tool a the heart of it. musical shamanism where the fringe element can be part of the larger culture. creativity brought to the heart of the dull. breaking of barriers with the way you can see hip hop and country music mix or folktale reggae. music tries to explain how to be successful in your own life, inadvertently. then some schmuck decides to listen to 2pac and figures out how to cure aids.

this represents a falling into the singularity of choice. sometimes you move directly towards the circle and that is called a "breakthrough" in any discipline. you explore a variety of different methodologies, tunes, tools, weapons, tactics- and then you find the key that fits the door. this method works well. I hate to tell you this friend, but that is the mechanism of self awareness. work backwards. 

you seek pattern to try new tactics to see what works best <= this is called being self aware. it's a process, just like any other, that is designed to give you more variation to improve the genetic pool. dominant traits appear faster and it explains "breakthroughs" such as the bronze age. (not aliens- genetics). <= as it is a tool of survival value, like thirst, it is governed by the same rules and factors of other survival tools <= survival tools depend on facts that exist in nature. it's cold outside thus I need a jacket. you need to 'understand' purple jackets, so you buy one to mix up your internal processes. to keep you fresh. <= these tools depend on physical systems themselves like the works of physics. your heart contains a finite amount of cells, each working like clockwork. you'll die on the same day no matter what you do. 

you are a determined factor in this world. so relax. but remember, NON- ACTION isn't the same as NO-ACTION. this idea is expressed in works like the Bhagavad Gita and Tao Te Ching. taoist scripture says that things are determined but there is personal agency- there is a kind of flexibility to it. This is similar to compatabalism in logistics. This is a kind of a quarter truth. there is an absolute determinism in things (hard determinism) but we can never know it because to calculate things on that level would require a computer larger than what you're trying to calculate. a teraflop contains a trillion floating point operations per second but how many floating point operations does it take to create a computer? imagine each proton or electron is a floating point? there are three isotopes for every carbon molecule in a polycarbonate plastic bottle. so good luck with that. that's what really blows me away about the I Ching because it doesn't predict things, it gets the general view- a short peek in the 'random' underworkings and naturally, it's very simple to use. 

I'm sorry, science is a ticking time bomb. we can only magnify things so much. we will never walk on the surface of a hydrogen molecule. we, as a species existing like we are in the moment, have a very short term in this universe. I'm not talking about aliens or whatever, I'm just saying that in 3.9 billion years ago some stuff happened and we called that "earth". the history of man is what, like 10,000 years? that means that in another 10,000 years we will be as different from now as we are now from the whatever we crawled from. 

anyway, we'd need a computer the size of our universe to create a digital sofa. that is all. 

also, the arguments for and against determinism are super weak. it's like they have no idea what they're talking about.