Sunday, September 9, 2012

Worth it

I caught myself today. I was sitting at the computer desk with a (strong) drink in my hand and I was yelling at my cousin in the same tone and style my dad used to. Some shit just isn't worth passing on. I walked out side, took a breath, tossed the drink and went back inside. I'm finding that being emotionally vulnerable is enjoyable in some ways. It's weird, after I've alienated all my friends and basically destroyed my social life, strangers off the street will come up and tell me how awesome I am. It's like they cheer me on. I don't know if that happens to anyone else, but fuck. How cool is that? I don't get much of a gray zone. It seems like either everyone is my friend or nobody is. I guess I've still got a lot of emotional work to do. My report card used to be all A's and F's. Seems like it's still that way. Guess that's not so bad.

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