Computer is still fucked

It's only a virus, a ghost in the shell. Temporary possession that I can't afford to fix. It won't allow me to boot in safe mode. If only, if only, that glorious safe mode.

The best thing about this blog is I write what I'd like to read. Then I forget what I've written. Then I read it. Epic win.

I've been called 'cold' a number of times in the last week. Something about the measure of rationalization or speak of theory or philosophizing. In other news, I'm also voted "most empathetic," seems like the two are contradictory. OR perhaps it just emphasizes the feeling of coldness. "Yeah, I know what you mean and I still don't care" or something like that. I blame short attention spans. Those who are unwilling to commit to an actual look at what is happening. Flash judgements are in their hay day- and I all too often find myself stretched thin, heart'a'pounding over my appearance. It's stupid.

Then I find myself sitting in class with a headache because I'm not challenged and forced to sit through Dimwitty's presentation of whatever it is.

I read that the Amygdala is one of the first parts of the brain to receive information we process. As it's responsible for fear responses, it gives us that millisecond edge in the fight or flight response. The downside (and this is an oversimplification) is that we're prone to an overuse of emotional reasoning, which may lead to procrastination, as we yet haven't reached that nonlinear critical mass required to take the proper action in a situation.

I sit in class and passively digest the aura or feeling of a person. Often it's more about group behavior than individuals. It's funny how a larger ratio of individuals is needed to steer a small group than a large one. Cascade effects... oh I can feel it so vividly. The little streams of persuasion, trying to pool in and tip the cup-minds of those around it. It's not so much a virtue of language as it is liquid dynamics. Of course a tool is only as good as how you use it. I was very manipulative as a kid, and I don't agree with the ethics of that mode anymore. Instead of being made to happen, it should be allowed to happen. Let me explore that a little more.

To be allowed to happen.

Yes.

To make a thing, to synthesize it individually is to create from a position of an inferior force, for you will always personally make something that is less great than you are, unless it's a cooperation or group effort. Instead, focusing your attention to the natural and inherent rhythms of the world will allow your action to take multi-fold effects upon the desired way. Waves, when the peaks match the peaks and the troughs match the troughs, etc. You feed into the momentum of an action to increase the swing of a pendulum. This is why a person on a swing can increase his or her momentum without being pushed. You, unaided by outside forces, can use proper leverage to achieve a desired result.

Oh, that damned problem of leverage.

If you're not in a community that cares for the things you do or does not move towards your desired ends, this can be a problem. Anyway, I'm explaining too much of too little an idea. Overkill. Good to get it out though.