Computer is still fucked

It's only a virus, a ghost in the shell. Temporary possession that I can't afford to fix. It won't allow me to boot in safe mode. If only, if only, that glorious safe mode.

The best thing about this blog is I write what I'd like to read. Then I forget what I've written. Then I read it. Epic win.

I've been called 'cold' a number of times in the last week. Something about the measure of rationalization or speak of theory or philosophizing. In other news, I'm also voted "most empathetic," seems like the two are contradictory. OR perhaps it just emphasizes the feeling of coldness. "Yeah, I know what you mean and I still don't care" or something like that. I blame short attention spans. Those who are unwilling to commit to an actual look at what is happening. Flash judgements are in their hay day- and I all too often find myself stretched thin, heart'a'pounding over my appearance. It's stupid.

Then I find myself sitting in class with a headache because I'm not challenged and forced to sit through Dimwitty's presentation of whatever it is.

I read that the Amygdala is one of the first parts of the brain to receive information we process. As it's responsible for fear responses, it gives us that millisecond edge in the fight or flight response. The downside (and this is an oversimplification) is that we're prone to an overuse of emotional reasoning, which may lead to procrastination, as we yet haven't reached that nonlinear critical mass required to take the proper action in a situation.

I sit in class and passively digest the aura or feeling of a person. Often it's more about group behavior than individuals. It's funny how a larger ratio of individuals is needed to steer a small group than a large one. Cascade effects... oh I can feel it so vividly. The little streams of persuasion, trying to pool in and tip the cup-minds of those around it. It's not so much a virtue of language as it is liquid dynamics. Of course a tool is only as good as how you use it. I was very manipulative as a kid, and I don't agree with the ethics of that mode anymore. Instead of being made to happen, it should be allowed to happen. Let me explore that a little more.

To be allowed to happen.

Yes.

To make a thing, to synthesize it individually is to create from a position of an inferior force, for you will always personally make something that is less great than you are, unless it's a cooperation or group effort. Instead, focusing your attention to the natural and inherent rhythms of the world will allow your action to take multi-fold effects upon the desired way. Waves, when the peaks match the peaks and the troughs match the troughs, etc. You feed into the momentum of an action to increase the swing of a pendulum. This is why a person on a swing can increase his or her momentum without being pushed. You, unaided by outside forces, can use proper leverage to achieve a desired result.

Oh, that damned problem of leverage.

If you're not in a community that cares for the things you do or does not move towards your desired ends, this can be a problem. Anyway, I'm explaining too much of too little an idea. Overkill. Good to get it out though.

Pulling your own weight.

During this past weekend I took a road trip down to the LA area with two friends from Crossfit Monterey, Oly lifter Shareef Fahmy and coach Jacob Tsypkin to go watch the Crossfit 2011 games. One night we met up with Jake's friend Serge at a place called the Yard House (get the BBQ bacon cheddar burger, it's one of the best I've ever had).

Anyway, this guy that was with us, Rob, he convinced the only person at our table that wasn't a lifter to explain some of his personal beliefs. Rob also displaces the most space out of anyone at the table. He's kind of a big guy and this non-lifter Matt doesn't exactly displace a lot of other matter.

I'm pretty sure his name was Matt. Someone there was named Matt.

So this guy Matt goes on about how his biggest pet peeve- the thing that irks him most- that which twists his panties in the greatest angle of rotation... is the growing stratification of class in this country. He made some good points: mainly that the issue is largely systemic, but then he started talking some bullshit. Basically, as I understand it, he was promoting various welfare-like systems, such as rich people providing for poor people. Charity cases.

People started yelling, there were a couple personal threats made in really poor fashion (racial insults said to some rather large people)... a lot of poor dialog because we were all a little drunk and talking about politics. I was a little too in love with my meal to say much besides "om nom nom" and "oh my god, this burger..." and "the fuck... did he really?" so I thought I'd explain my thoughts on the issue of the segregation of rich and poor peoples.

I'm a big fan of small government. The role of government should be reduced to it's smallest role possible, and not more or less than that. I'm a big fan of the "teach a man to fish" approach. Provide the tools that people ask for- for they cannot and will not use the methods and means that they are not inspired towards. In that end, I act in a way I believe is best, and as a side effect, I show people around me ways to live more properly if they like what I'm doing.

If your situation is crap, don't worry. Take that crap situation and make it excellent. That's alchemy. That's worth doing. One of the only things worth doing.

If you're poor, put more weight on the bar.